Week 10

so i went and brought up the duff by kaz cooke and have been reading it every week to "monitor" bub D's progress for those who dont know its a pregnancy book written by a aussie chick who was fed up with all the conflicting and confusing and un-relatable information she was reading in other pregnancy books whilst pregnant with her first baby, so she combined useful and truthful information she gathered from books, internet, mothers, doctors, midwives and put in a real aus girl guide to pregnancy 

its set out with a week by week whats going on with you and the baby's development, a week by week dairy written with a as "hermoine" which is a dairy based on her experiences and stories from others.

so last night i was reading hermione's weeks nine and ten diary and found myself laughing out loud in true sense not a lol sense! so here is an extract

week 9

when she is booking into the hospital she plans to deliver her baby ".....the hospital has a lot of patients who believe in circumcision their boy children before they are old enough to have an anesthetic. if i have a boy, i might have to write "no circumcision" on his forehead until i leave ....."

".....the list of things were instructed to bring to the hospital on the baby's birth day is more mystifying the longer i look at it. "underclothes including underpants and maternity bras: well, what other kinds of underclothes are there? do people usually take flounced petticoats and lace teddies? "one or two packets of nursing pads" oh dear. not a clue what they are. 

then theres a whole list of baby stuff they want you to bring, for which well need to borrow a road train. "four bunny-rugs" four? whats going to happen with the other three? does baby shred them during tantrums? do they all go on at once? how cold can the kid get? what exactly constitutes the bunnies of a rug? "baby hat, and bootees or socks, and mittens(optional)" well, im glad its all optional. because it hadnt previously occurred to me that a person less than a week old should have a hat and gloves. stockings, maybe. but lets not go overboard. the kid can develop its own sense of elegant matching accessories when it leaves home and can afford to buy its own forma wear 

further suggestions include "essential oils, glucose lollies, large t-shirt, or old nightie, socks, toiletries, book or magazine ect., t-shirts and shorts or swimwear for partner if desired" i have never imagined labour as a scenario in which i am lying back reading while hubby does a few laps. its all very confusing. and at what exact point during labour would one read a book? "the babys head is crowning!" "dont bother me now, Mr Darcy's just going for a swim in the pond"......."

week 10

at the first ultrasound "......"look its waving" the doctor says pointing out a head, arms, and legs. the head seams to turn towars us, like something out of an alien movie.

"oh fuck, thats too weird" i say and nobody answers.

it occurs to me youre not supposed to say fuck during an ultrasound. repeat after me: mumies ought not to say fuck. sigh. so much to learn..........."

"............doctor says everything is normal. normal? i want to sneer. ive spent my whole life running away from normal. i dont DO normal, i want to be interesting i want... okay itd kind of reasuring that everythings normal. ill admit it. you dont want the doctor to say "what the...?, that cant be?...or holy catfish! ive never seen that before, do you mind if i call some friends to come over and have a look?"......"

ill keep posting the funnies 

cheers lis 

inside the actors studio

These questions are the last questions they ask the actors that apear on the actors studio which is a great show if u have never seen it

1. What is your favourite word?
- I don't think I have one the closet one is fuck but the most said one is man or oh my god/goodness

2. What is a word you hate?
- I can't stand " my bad" it's a sucky excuse for an apology I also hate the word accreditation which all child care workers will also share a hate for

3. What turns you on?
Secret kisses, laughing

4. What turns you off?
Lies and selfishness

5. what is a sound you love?
- I love giggles from kids of just the cool theories they have and I love music most music
6. what is a sound you don't like?
- squels or screaming it pieces right through you esp a bad day

7. what is your favourite course word
Obviously it's fuck I find it hard not to use this in most conversations

8. what profession would you like to atempt other than yours
- probably writing

9. what profession would you not to try other than yours?
- cleaning I used to do this casualy for mum it's not for me

10 if heaven exsits what would god say when you get there?
- I've been waiting for you!

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cravings

So I have my first craving. The morning of my 6th week and I wake up wanting fish n chips really really really really bad it's like I have never wanted another food more than this or been more hungry in my life.
I didn't think cravings started this early!! And I never thought they were this powerful!!! After a quike search on baby /pregnancy websites I noticed that a lot started craving food at 2-3 weeks wow I didn't know that and one women wrote "i'm five weeks and I can't get enough of fish and chips"
Well I must go so I covince someone to get it for me .....

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yes im a list whore too ...

i stole this from my aunty's blog 

Where did you begin 2008?​
At home. we had new years at our house 

What was your status by Valentine'​s Day?
before, during and after i was married 

Were you in school (anytime this year)​?​
No.

Did you have to go to the hospital?​
yep twice well admitted twice but i was an outpatient all year and went once a fortnight for chemo 

Did you have any encounters​ with the police?
No, well i talk to a few in a social sense who i know 

Where​ did you go on vacation?
surfers for a week 

What did you purchase that was over $​500?​
my health, kitchen buffet 

Did you know anybody who got married?​
brendan and laura 

Did you know anybody who passed away?​
No.

Did you move anywhere?​
yep....

What sport​ng event​s did you attend?
swans game, newcastle game, Adrian's cricket and his shit soccer games 

What conce​rts/​shows​ did you go to?
only 1 this year :(

but it was freaking awesome - living end!!

Where​ do you live now?
campbelltown, nsw, australia 

Describe your birth​day.​
quiet dinner at mums with some of the family 

​What's the one thing​ you thought you would​ never​ do but did in 2008?​
strong enough to fight cancer and get pregnant 

What has/​have been your favorite moments?
the laughs through chemo was unreal, joking with my friends about my mortality, laughing in the chemo ward with my fantastic nurses, the support from everyone, the confidence boost from Georgie, peta and the girls from strands of colours and emma and the girls from simply devine beauty. kicking around on the net for hours loling with the new peeps i met on facebook, you know who you are guys =) 

What'​s something you learn​ed about​ yours​elf?​
im strong, have a positive outlook, a dark sense of humor, 

Any new additions to your family?​
ask me in 2009 

What was your best month​?​
december prob confirmation of pregnancy, july was good for last chemo, and september was good for remission confirmation 

What music​ will you remember in 2008?​
prob living end amongst many many more 

Who has been your best drinking buddy​?​
kim, berley, how ever you know her!

Made new friends?​
Online ones, yes, and work mates 

Favorite Night​[​s]​ out?
a few drunken nights at the catho, shooters, 

Any regrets?​
i dont think so 

What do you want to change in 2009?​
things are changing now for me, also i want to move 

Overall, how would​ you rate this year?​
Possibly a 9/10 even all the bad stuff had positives.

Other​ than home,​ where​ did you spend​ most of your time?​
mums, work, jens, fb

Have any life changes in 2008?​
went through cancer 

Chang​e your hairstyle?​
yeah 

Get a new job?
yep =)

How old did you turn this year?​
27 

Did anything embarrassing?​
a lot of stupid fb status updates, and some crazy blog posts 

Buy anything new from eBay?​
ebay?? no ....

Get married or divorced?​
Nup 

Be hones​t - did you watch​ American Idol?​
no!! and not even aus idol 

Did you get sick this year?​
yeah,  enough said 

Start​ a new hobby​?​
fb lol 

Been snowboarding?

what?? serious this a question? 

Drank​ Starbucks in 2008?​
no!! hate starbucks and they went bankrupt in aus anyway, i like gloria jeans and im addicted to their cookies n cream ice coffees.

What are you wishing for in 2009?​
a great house and a good pregnancy and healthy bub 

the strip with two line

yes after 

6 and half years

countless blood test, 

ultrasounds, 

internal xrays and ultrasounds 

1 year of fertility drugs 

another year with 5 ivf cycles

cancer diagnosis 

7 months of 12 chemo treatments

i fell pregnant. naturally at that, what i thought wouldnt happen without ivf, we did it. 

now i fit into those excruciating stories of:- "we stop trying/we went on a holiday/i tried ivf and when i stopped/we were due to start ivf...then we fell pregnant"

i hate these stories when we were trying "miracle" stories from others who have been in your situation is the last thing that you want to here so i state we NEVER stop trying - we DIDNT go on a holiday, we only stop ivf due to chemo, we just didnt expect it happen. 

anyways enough about that i noticed i was late and picked up a pregnancy test on christmas eve with the intent to do it the next morning yes christmas day!

i cant remember how many of these things i have brought and had since going of the pill 6 and half years ago so adrian was not a fan about getting it so early and wanted to wait till after christmas or even new years. but i did it anyway. it took a minute for it to turn positive and after this long i wasnt expecting that result at all. i stared at it for a full 2 minutes untill i called agrain in to show him. we then had a quike discussion to decide to tell our parents or not, and i saw mum i burst into tears and told what was to happen.  we then told craig and beth. and when we arrived at adrians parents place i simply said i was going to have just juice that morning and smiled at judi and she knew what it meant! 

when i told my dad later that day i asked "so in 9 months do u want to be called "granddad" or "grandpa"? 

mum told john, geroge and connie the next day 

everyone is excited and happy, and has been very very very hard to keep it secret but if things go the other way i dont want  a million peoples pity i had enough of that through cancer so i told my family and am not sure if ill be posting this yet to notify facebook or not but i know not all my fb peeps read my blog so i think im save to post. 

now we face the head ach of shopping around for baby stuff and have spent the last 3 days looking at a hundred cots and change tables man! thats a whole different post to itself stay tune. 

so this pregnancy is of course going to be an epregnancy and a Ipregnancy, you may laugh but hey its true i have told a lot of you via the net, and i have already signed up for a few enewsletters from pregnancy websites and downloaded ipod pregnancy applications which are heaps cool! 

adrian has also decided to take a photo of me every sunday to create a belly book so see how it grows over the months to come. so im posting the first one im also posting the first photo taken of me once i knew 

sabotaging your social skills

when i went in to get my hair done on monday i was handed the latest issue of cosmo to read while they put the colour in. i havntnt read cosmo for years and was shocked to find 3 articles related to facebook, and blogging - obviously the last time i brought an issue there was no myspace/facebook and blogs were the new things. 

the first article was how socail networking is sabotaging peoples social skills and facebook dosnt count as catching up with a person. 

they covered three areas 

friendships that people need to still meet up for coffees to get the hug and catch up and while instant messages can be easier and less intimidating, tone of a message can be misleading (this is why we use emotions ;) ) some of my family and friends i only communicate with via msn and facebook but that is basically due to location and my close friends and i hardly ever msg each other over these devises in-fact i often dont instant message them at all when they are on line simply because i see them all the time 

work. that often email each other cos they cant be fucked getting up out of their chairs. well this also comes down to productivity when i was tempting in jens office we sat next to each other and yet will still email each other. you can have conversations with out your boss overhearing and if you get up out of your chair you run the risk of running in to the office chatterbox or gossip and spending 30 minutes relaying something to someone where as if you stayed put it be 5 minutes while you multi tasked 

love - this concerns people that meet online but that chemistry is not translated to real life and while internet is a great way to met people and get to know them initially the real dating should happen old style in the flesh 

this next was about status despair and that people are having real anxiety not having hundreds of online contacts and they go on to say (yes contradicting themselves) "online communication is no different to what happens in real life" and good relationships on line can lead to confidence and hight esteem while being ignored can be devastating  then they say that online relationships are more intense and fast, easily accessible and available at all hours so when people dont receive instant response they are instantly disappointed (note to all my post yes i get anxious if you dont respond asap ;) )  and when things turn sour your reactions are heightened they even state that people have gone into therapy over an online relationship in second life breaking down (i went into therapy when i got rejected from a facebook group ) 

and the last one was about online confessionals and salvation and hour there is hundreds on online sites where people can confess their sins in secrecy and blogs fall into this category as celebrities post apologies to their fans via  their myspace blogs and also release their latest press statements about pending marriages, babies and divorces. i know im a tad more candid on line then in person and a bit more of my whole self is often displayed on net where as i sometimes censor those aspects around different groups of people but most people are like that 

our whole life is on line these days and everything is posted and relayed via facebook and this has been happening for years it definitely not knew yes i still remember 10 years ago when i  married a friend on line .... i never got that divorced oops 

Wrap up

okay im lifting again but this time it is from my cousins notes section which is a crapspace chain mail thing and designed for the young which is the crapspace appeal so im deleting the inrelevant questions 

2008 IS ALMOST OVER, WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?

Stayed single almost the whole year?
no of course not i celebrated our 6th wedding anniversary and now were are coming up on the 7th 


Kissed someone new?
i dont think so how sad am i? or do cyber kisses count ???? =P

Done something you've regretted?
mmm maybe a lfew blog spaces but i tried to love with out regrets, i say try ... unfortunately  im full of  "what ifs"


Lost someone close?
no thankfully 


Were involved in something you'll never forget?
 a few things, chemo, hospital visits, bdays 


Visited a different country?
nope


Cooked a gross meal?
no im a fantastic cook and never make mistakes like who would accidently put salt in a biscuit recipe instead of sugar?


Lost something important to you?
yeah well it was at the time a bracelet went through the wash and out the drain ooh and my job was important too for the kids sake 


Got a gift you adore?
yeah my ipod for christmas yes 2008 christmas i got it early .. like way early 


Tripped over a coffee table?
probably 50 sadly im very un co 


Dyed your hair?
yes i went red, now im red with blond hi-lights 


Went to a party?
yeah but not many the most i remember is matt's 21st, brendan and laura's wedding, lauras hens, harry's 1st, and some preschool ones and work chrissy parties .. omg im sad! 2009 the year of partys and getting drunk


Saw one of your favourite bands/artists live?
yes one i desired to see for 10 years yes desired is the appropriate word since i think chris is hot! but also sadly only one concert this year .. i need to get out 


Did you meet any new friends this year?
yeah a few that i love already 


Did you dislike anyone?
probably its human nature and sometimes im know to "hate people" but seriously i love you all 


Did you grow apart from anyone?
Yeah sadly but it had to happen 


Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?
yeah that i lost some i always lament lost friends even if they were toxic to me 


2008: Your BIRTHDAY!
Did you have cake?
yes ... i think...?


Did you have a party?
nah just family 


How old did you turn?
25....okay i was 27 but in 2009 ill be 25!


2008: All about YOU
Did you change at all this year?
did i not change is the question

Did you get your hair cut?
well if you can count falling out cutting, but yeah it was trimmed, cut, shaved and now trimmed every few weeks to keep it healthy to grow it back 


Did you change your style?
i had to.. no hair kinda does that to you, now i have a cool short do that i have never had b4 thanks to peta my excellent hairdresser 



Did you have a job?
yeah kinda 2 since my old one finished on the 15th january and the new started in the 11th of august 


Did you drive?
im always driving 

Did you move at all?
yeah halfway through 


Did you go on any vacations?
to surfers 


Would you change anything about yourself now?
a few kilos 


2008: Wrap UP:
Was 2008 a good year?
yeah it was 


Do you think 2009 will top 2008?
hopefully like no cancer, ill keep my job, and ill move to an awesome house and my hair will be HOT and a few other things fingers crossed 


I confess that in 2008 I...
() stayed single for the whole year
() kissed in the snow
(x) celebrated Halloween
() had your heart broken
() mooned someone
(x) went over the minutes on your cell phone
(x) someone questioned your sexual orientation
(x) came out of the closet
(x) done something you've regretted

OTHER
(x) painted a picture
() wrote a poem
() ran a mile
() shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch
(x) posted a blog on MySpace and here and face book 
() visited a foreign country
(x) cut in a line of waiting people not  intentionally 
(x) told someone you were busy when you weren't .... sorry 
(x) partied to celebrate the new year yeah a bit to much thanks adam thank god there was no video!!!
(x) cooked a disastrous meal
(x) lied about how old you were off course not im totally proud of my age 
(x) prank called someone

In 2008 I...
[] fell in-love was already in-love 
[x] lied
[] cried over a broken heart
[x] disappointed someone close but the person it was i dont care that i did it cos the disappointment related to my lifestyle and personality and essence of me 
[x] hid a secret it was beyond hard 
[x] pretended to be happy
[] slept under the stars
[] kept your new years resolution
[x]forgot your new years resolution
[x] met someone who changed your life
[] met one of your idols
[x] changed your outlook on life
[x] sat home all day doing nothing for 6 months 
[x] pretended to be sick well not pretended i was sick just used it as an excuse sometimes when i needed to
[] left the country
[x] given up on something/someone important to you
[x] lost something expensive
[x] learned something new about yourself
[x] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
[x] made a change in your life
[x] found out who your true friends were
[x] met great people
[x] stayed up til sunrise
[x] cried over the silliest thing
[x] had friends who were drifting away from you
[x]had a high cell phone bill
[x] spent most of your money on food
[] had a fist fight
[x] went to the beach with your best friend i went to the beach once, with mum, adrian p, emma p, and yvonne than i wasnt aloud to again 
[xx] gotten sick
[] liked more than 5 people at the same time
[x] became closer with a lot of people