yes im a list whore too ...

i stole this from my aunty's blog 

Where did you begin 2008?​
At home. we had new years at our house 

What was your status by Valentine'​s Day?
before, during and after i was married 

Were you in school (anytime this year)​?​
No.

Did you have to go to the hospital?​
yep twice well admitted twice but i was an outpatient all year and went once a fortnight for chemo 

Did you have any encounters​ with the police?
No, well i talk to a few in a social sense who i know 

Where​ did you go on vacation?
surfers for a week 

What did you purchase that was over $​500?​
my health, kitchen buffet 

Did you know anybody who got married?​
brendan and laura 

Did you know anybody who passed away?​
No.

Did you move anywhere?​
yep....

What sport​ng event​s did you attend?
swans game, newcastle game, Adrian's cricket and his shit soccer games 

What conce​rts/​shows​ did you go to?
only 1 this year :(

but it was freaking awesome - living end!!

Where​ do you live now?
campbelltown, nsw, australia 

Describe your birth​day.​
quiet dinner at mums with some of the family 

​What's the one thing​ you thought you would​ never​ do but did in 2008?​
strong enough to fight cancer and get pregnant 

What has/​have been your favorite moments?
the laughs through chemo was unreal, joking with my friends about my mortality, laughing in the chemo ward with my fantastic nurses, the support from everyone, the confidence boost from Georgie, peta and the girls from strands of colours and emma and the girls from simply devine beauty. kicking around on the net for hours loling with the new peeps i met on facebook, you know who you are guys =) 

What'​s something you learn​ed about​ yours​elf?​
im strong, have a positive outlook, a dark sense of humor, 

Any new additions to your family?​
ask me in 2009 

What was your best month​?​
december prob confirmation of pregnancy, july was good for last chemo, and september was good for remission confirmation 

What music​ will you remember in 2008?​
prob living end amongst many many more 

Who has been your best drinking buddy​?​
kim, berley, how ever you know her!

Made new friends?​
Online ones, yes, and work mates 

Favorite Night​[​s]​ out?
a few drunken nights at the catho, shooters, 

Any regrets?​
i dont think so 

What do you want to change in 2009?​
things are changing now for me, also i want to move 

Overall, how would​ you rate this year?​
Possibly a 9/10 even all the bad stuff had positives.

Other​ than home,​ where​ did you spend​ most of your time?​
mums, work, jens, fb

Have any life changes in 2008?​
went through cancer 

Chang​e your hairstyle?​
yeah 

Get a new job?
yep =)

How old did you turn this year?​
27 

Did anything embarrassing?​
a lot of stupid fb status updates, and some crazy blog posts 

Buy anything new from eBay?​
ebay?? no ....

Get married or divorced?​
Nup 

Be hones​t - did you watch​ American Idol?​
no!! and not even aus idol 

Did you get sick this year?​
yeah,  enough said 

Start​ a new hobby​?​
fb lol 

Been snowboarding?

what?? serious this a question? 

Drank​ Starbucks in 2008?​
no!! hate starbucks and they went bankrupt in aus anyway, i like gloria jeans and im addicted to their cookies n cream ice coffees.

What are you wishing for in 2009?​
a great house and a good pregnancy and healthy bub 

the strip with two line

yes after 

6 and half years

countless blood test, 

ultrasounds, 

internal xrays and ultrasounds 

1 year of fertility drugs 

another year with 5 ivf cycles

cancer diagnosis 

7 months of 12 chemo treatments

i fell pregnant. naturally at that, what i thought wouldnt happen without ivf, we did it. 

now i fit into those excruciating stories of:- "we stop trying/we went on a holiday/i tried ivf and when i stopped/we were due to start ivf...then we fell pregnant"

i hate these stories when we were trying "miracle" stories from others who have been in your situation is the last thing that you want to here so i state we NEVER stop trying - we DIDNT go on a holiday, we only stop ivf due to chemo, we just didnt expect it happen. 

anyways enough about that i noticed i was late and picked up a pregnancy test on christmas eve with the intent to do it the next morning yes christmas day!

i cant remember how many of these things i have brought and had since going of the pill 6 and half years ago so adrian was not a fan about getting it so early and wanted to wait till after christmas or even new years. but i did it anyway. it took a minute for it to turn positive and after this long i wasnt expecting that result at all. i stared at it for a full 2 minutes untill i called agrain in to show him. we then had a quike discussion to decide to tell our parents or not, and i saw mum i burst into tears and told what was to happen.  we then told craig and beth. and when we arrived at adrians parents place i simply said i was going to have just juice that morning and smiled at judi and she knew what it meant! 

when i told my dad later that day i asked "so in 9 months do u want to be called "granddad" or "grandpa"? 

mum told john, geroge and connie the next day 

everyone is excited and happy, and has been very very very hard to keep it secret but if things go the other way i dont want  a million peoples pity i had enough of that through cancer so i told my family and am not sure if ill be posting this yet to notify facebook or not but i know not all my fb peeps read my blog so i think im save to post. 

now we face the head ach of shopping around for baby stuff and have spent the last 3 days looking at a hundred cots and change tables man! thats a whole different post to itself stay tune. 

so this pregnancy is of course going to be an epregnancy and a Ipregnancy, you may laugh but hey its true i have told a lot of you via the net, and i have already signed up for a few enewsletters from pregnancy websites and downloaded ipod pregnancy applications which are heaps cool! 

adrian has also decided to take a photo of me every sunday to create a belly book so see how it grows over the months to come. so im posting the first one im also posting the first photo taken of me once i knew 

sabotaging your social skills

when i went in to get my hair done on monday i was handed the latest issue of cosmo to read while they put the colour in. i havntnt read cosmo for years and was shocked to find 3 articles related to facebook, and blogging - obviously the last time i brought an issue there was no myspace/facebook and blogs were the new things. 

the first article was how socail networking is sabotaging peoples social skills and facebook dosnt count as catching up with a person. 

they covered three areas 

friendships that people need to still meet up for coffees to get the hug and catch up and while instant messages can be easier and less intimidating, tone of a message can be misleading (this is why we use emotions ;) ) some of my family and friends i only communicate with via msn and facebook but that is basically due to location and my close friends and i hardly ever msg each other over these devises in-fact i often dont instant message them at all when they are on line simply because i see them all the time 

work. that often email each other cos they cant be fucked getting up out of their chairs. well this also comes down to productivity when i was tempting in jens office we sat next to each other and yet will still email each other. you can have conversations with out your boss overhearing and if you get up out of your chair you run the risk of running in to the office chatterbox or gossip and spending 30 minutes relaying something to someone where as if you stayed put it be 5 minutes while you multi tasked 

love - this concerns people that meet online but that chemistry is not translated to real life and while internet is a great way to met people and get to know them initially the real dating should happen old style in the flesh 

this next was about status despair and that people are having real anxiety not having hundreds of online contacts and they go on to say (yes contradicting themselves) "online communication is no different to what happens in real life" and good relationships on line can lead to confidence and hight esteem while being ignored can be devastating  then they say that online relationships are more intense and fast, easily accessible and available at all hours so when people dont receive instant response they are instantly disappointed (note to all my post yes i get anxious if you dont respond asap ;) )  and when things turn sour your reactions are heightened they even state that people have gone into therapy over an online relationship in second life breaking down (i went into therapy when i got rejected from a facebook group ) 

and the last one was about online confessionals and salvation and hour there is hundreds on online sites where people can confess their sins in secrecy and blogs fall into this category as celebrities post apologies to their fans via  their myspace blogs and also release their latest press statements about pending marriages, babies and divorces. i know im a tad more candid on line then in person and a bit more of my whole self is often displayed on net where as i sometimes censor those aspects around different groups of people but most people are like that 

our whole life is on line these days and everything is posted and relayed via facebook and this has been happening for years it definitely not knew yes i still remember 10 years ago when i  married a friend on line .... i never got that divorced oops 

Wrap up

okay im lifting again but this time it is from my cousins notes section which is a crapspace chain mail thing and designed for the young which is the crapspace appeal so im deleting the inrelevant questions 

2008 IS ALMOST OVER, WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?

Stayed single almost the whole year?
no of course not i celebrated our 6th wedding anniversary and now were are coming up on the 7th 


Kissed someone new?
i dont think so how sad am i? or do cyber kisses count ???? =P

Done something you've regretted?
mmm maybe a lfew blog spaces but i tried to love with out regrets, i say try ... unfortunately  im full of  "what ifs"


Lost someone close?
no thankfully 


Were involved in something you'll never forget?
 a few things, chemo, hospital visits, bdays 


Visited a different country?
nope


Cooked a gross meal?
no im a fantastic cook and never make mistakes like who would accidently put salt in a biscuit recipe instead of sugar?


Lost something important to you?
yeah well it was at the time a bracelet went through the wash and out the drain ooh and my job was important too for the kids sake 


Got a gift you adore?
yeah my ipod for christmas yes 2008 christmas i got it early .. like way early 


Tripped over a coffee table?
probably 50 sadly im very un co 


Dyed your hair?
yes i went red, now im red with blond hi-lights 


Went to a party?
yeah but not many the most i remember is matt's 21st, brendan and laura's wedding, lauras hens, harry's 1st, and some preschool ones and work chrissy parties .. omg im sad! 2009 the year of partys and getting drunk


Saw one of your favourite bands/artists live?
yes one i desired to see for 10 years yes desired is the appropriate word since i think chris is hot! but also sadly only one concert this year .. i need to get out 


Did you meet any new friends this year?
yeah a few that i love already 


Did you dislike anyone?
probably its human nature and sometimes im know to "hate people" but seriously i love you all 


Did you grow apart from anyone?
Yeah sadly but it had to happen 


Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?
yeah that i lost some i always lament lost friends even if they were toxic to me 


2008: Your BIRTHDAY!
Did you have cake?
yes ... i think...?


Did you have a party?
nah just family 


How old did you turn?
25....okay i was 27 but in 2009 ill be 25!


2008: All about YOU
Did you change at all this year?
did i not change is the question

Did you get your hair cut?
well if you can count falling out cutting, but yeah it was trimmed, cut, shaved and now trimmed every few weeks to keep it healthy to grow it back 


Did you change your style?
i had to.. no hair kinda does that to you, now i have a cool short do that i have never had b4 thanks to peta my excellent hairdresser 



Did you have a job?
yeah kinda 2 since my old one finished on the 15th january and the new started in the 11th of august 


Did you drive?
im always driving 

Did you move at all?
yeah halfway through 


Did you go on any vacations?
to surfers 


Would you change anything about yourself now?
a few kilos 


2008: Wrap UP:
Was 2008 a good year?
yeah it was 


Do you think 2009 will top 2008?
hopefully like no cancer, ill keep my job, and ill move to an awesome house and my hair will be HOT and a few other things fingers crossed 


I confess that in 2008 I...
() stayed single for the whole year
() kissed in the snow
(x) celebrated Halloween
() had your heart broken
() mooned someone
(x) went over the minutes on your cell phone
(x) someone questioned your sexual orientation
(x) came out of the closet
(x) done something you've regretted

OTHER
(x) painted a picture
() wrote a poem
() ran a mile
() shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch
(x) posted a blog on MySpace and here and face book 
() visited a foreign country
(x) cut in a line of waiting people not  intentionally 
(x) told someone you were busy when you weren't .... sorry 
(x) partied to celebrate the new year yeah a bit to much thanks adam thank god there was no video!!!
(x) cooked a disastrous meal
(x) lied about how old you were off course not im totally proud of my age 
(x) prank called someone

In 2008 I...
[] fell in-love was already in-love 
[x] lied
[] cried over a broken heart
[x] disappointed someone close but the person it was i dont care that i did it cos the disappointment related to my lifestyle and personality and essence of me 
[x] hid a secret it was beyond hard 
[x] pretended to be happy
[] slept under the stars
[] kept your new years resolution
[x]forgot your new years resolution
[x] met someone who changed your life
[] met one of your idols
[x] changed your outlook on life
[x] sat home all day doing nothing for 6 months 
[x] pretended to be sick well not pretended i was sick just used it as an excuse sometimes when i needed to
[] left the country
[x] given up on something/someone important to you
[x] lost something expensive
[x] learned something new about yourself
[x] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
[x] made a change in your life
[x] found out who your true friends were
[x] met great people
[x] stayed up til sunrise
[x] cried over the silliest thing
[x] had friends who were drifting away from you
[x]had a high cell phone bill
[x] spent most of your money on food
[] had a fist fight
[x] went to the beach with your best friend i went to the beach once, with mum, adrian p, emma p, and yvonne than i wasnt aloud to again 
[xx] gotten sick
[] liked more than 5 people at the same time
[x] became closer with a lot of people

Alfresco Australia

reading ralph this month and i couldn't help but post this article they featured 

69 places to have sex in public in australia most of the list is a joke i suppose not to actually seam they are advocating sex in public but they are funny

1. Melbourne cup 

2. Yorkey's Knob, QLD and other places like Tittybong (vic) Middle Intercourse Island (WA) 

3. LAdy Macquarie's Chair, Sydney 

4. Domestic-flight toilets 

5. camping 

6. the MCG, melbourne (bonus points if you do it in the members stand)

7. the daintree rainforest, qld 

8. the grounds of parliment house, ACT - the place is chockas with pricks anyway so who'll notice one more ?

9. rundle mall adelaide, theres bugger all spectacles in adelaode so you may as well make one of yourself  

10. Bondi beach, Sydney 

11. floriade, Canberra, ACT - most chicks dig flowers and sex so why not combine the two by humping at australia's premier flower festival 

12. the big banana, coffs habour, nsw - if only for sheer double entendre hilarity, not advisable is you have a tiny dick, though , it'll only highlight the fact. trust us on this one ....

13. nimbin, nsw

14. the simpson desert 

15. mt kosciusko, NSW/VIC - summer only no ones frostbite 

16. cradle mountain national park, TAS - with a local chick that way if you get lost at least youve got your own map of tassie to show you the way 

17. the ralph magazine editors place- we'll leave the key under the mat for you 

18. coogee bay hotle, Sydney 

19 at the backyard bbq

20 under the old gum tree, glenelg, SA

21. at the logies

22. the ralph office

23 outside breaky central ( "sunrise" channel 7, martin place sydeny )

24 on the three sisters, blue mountains, nsw - this is even more awesome if its with three sisters who arnt geological formations 

25. your mates couch - with your mates hot sister dont forget to post pics on your facebook page - he'll love it 

26. sydney to hobart yacht race

27 at a sheffield sheild math - not only is the sound of leather on wood arousing , no one actually goes to these games, so you'll have plenty of privacy 

28. Shane's warnes backyard - there is bound to be a stray hottie running around here somewhere surley ?

29. luna park, sydney/melbourne 

30 the great barrier reef, not actually on it, that sharp coral cuts and stings like a mother f**ker

31 the entrance central coast, nsw

32 in a coober pedy underground house, sa

33. botany bay , sydney 

34. central station sydney

35. the set of rove live 

36. the museum of contemporary art, sydney 

37. on a tram - its actually the only place in melbourne that doesnt double as a bar

38. kirribilli house lawn, sydney 

39 brewery - the bubbling vats of beer are guaranteed to get the erotic 

40. back of a panel van - "dont come a knockin if the vans a rockin" the phrase that still needs to be added to australias constitution 

41. cockington green, act 

42 your old high school - relive the good old days with your sweet heart, extra points if she wears her old uniform 

43. your parents bed.

44. the pub with no beer, - theres no beer.. what the f**k eles are you suppose to do there?

45. the big merino goulburn, nsw be sure to make a joke about how you like to ram, to a kiwi chick, she'll crack up at your wit

46. during the screening of an aussie film - no one will be there, and you;ll give the projectionist something decent to watch 

47. at the ARIAs  - if you get busted ask why axle whitheads aloud to get his dick out but not you 

48 music festival portaloo

49. New Zealand - we reckon its close enough to count as aussie soil.

50. outside your local myer - solo of course 

51 backpacker hostel 

52 rod laver arena , melbourne  

53 the big day out, sydney 

54, the opera house sydney 

55 condom kingdom, surfers paradise

56 summernats, act 

57 nullarbor plain - stick a brick on the accelerator attach string to keep the wheel straight, then rock the back of the kombi

58 the ghan

59 at an alex lloyd concert 

60 on the edge of the great australian bight - really adventurous stuff but dont fall off or your fucked

61 in fornt of aerobics oz style 

62 on the bonds commercial casting couch 

63 the british high commission , act - show the british how ist donr

64 your local sexaholics anonymous meeting - seriously how hard can it be

65 in the audience of australian idol - dont forget to yell touchdown 

66. dreamworld roolercoaster, gold coast - the most exciting place to go down in oz, most rides here only last 2 minutes, but thats twice as long as your personal best 

67 thredbo, nsw what happens in thredbo, stays in thredbo , if you believe the adds 

68 the brownlow awards  

69 the pilbarra region , WA

sadly there is no harbour bridge?? 

go nuts

My friends and I go to vabys a bit now, espcially that lonestar and chilis have left campbelltown which we use to use for a spare of the moment casual dinner
We all like the go nuts desert so for Christmas I made it for desert for us all

Ingreadiants
8 litters of neopolitin ice cream
800 grams of peanut butter
3 packets of chocolate biscuits ( I used tiny teddies )
250 gms of butter
Chopped peanuts
And chocolate topping
you'll also need a frezzer container or smaller ones to set them in ( I used tupperware artic frezzer containers )

Blend up the teddies into fine granuals then mix with melted butter
Spoon mixture into the base of the containers and flat down
Freeze for 40 minutes
Spreed a generous about of peanut butter onto of the cookie base and then squirt with chocolate topping
Freeze again for 20 minutes
When set, spoon in ice cream using all the flavours equally
Top with topping and peanuts
Then feeze again until set

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gizmo gidget

I recently over the last week realized how reliant I am on gizmos in my life.
Mobile - I'm never far from it I carry my charger around in my bag for when I need to charge it and that's often! I primarily use it for the Internet I'm always used to facebook email man messenger and google and go onto wiki or imdb I also use it in the summer to watch the cricket live and get score updates and on the winter to get all the scores from the afl nrl and ru
iPod touch - I have fallen inlove with this! I never have this far from my side as well and I sleep with both my iPod and mobile under my pillow gone are the fear of getting brain tumors of too much exposure to frequencies from phones!
I do use it for music but basically it's my little "palmtop" and when I am home I'll use it for the net, again facebook, msn, aim, email, google ect, blogg and other stuff
I have also become addicted to downloading applications for it and playing games. Every night I'll use it to play games or read to wind down before going to sleep where I'll plug it into the idock/fm clock radio to choose a playlist to listen to to go to sleep with and wake up to
I wish I had an iphone to combine the both but when I needed a new phone iPhones were still unrealsed in Australia and they only recently become available through the 3 network which allows me to watch cricket on my phone
Navman- okay I know I don't need this as I have a pretty good sense of direction but it's more security in case I get lost of I'm in an unfamiliar place I have security that I'll be able to find my way without stress and it's something I can use better than a steer directory which I admitt I have trouble with
These days I get in the car plug the iPod in put the phone in the consol and plug the navman in and I feel funny when I'm missing them.
Pc - I live on my pc and it's almost never shut down I turn it on as soon as I get home am always doing something on it

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the other side of the pancake

So I have to get this off my chest just cos it pissed me off a fair bit when I herd it and is much as I'm trying to move past it it's all still fresh and I havnt got closure for what happened yet.
I'm talking about what happened at my old place of work
Most of you know the story so I won't rehash what happened. But apperently parents at my old place work properly informed why I left/no longer work there. Which is sad cos I never wanted them to think I don't care and just left without saying goodbye to their children or them espcially since I missed the kids terribly when I was on sick leave. Since leaving I have ran into a few parents who asked me what happened and I glossed by saying it was time for me to move on and a change was as good as a holiday. But all of those parents all went on to rant about the mangememt all without my propmting. I let them rant without comment as that is unprofessional and even though I'm writing this I'm not naming any names or adressing it to any one in particular to be deemed unprofessional.
I since found out that nasty things and lies have been told to parents to semi explain why I was forced to leave explains why I have been given the cold sholder by a lot of friends we share mutally
Yes the winner does take it all
And winners write the history books
But there is always two sides to a pancake no matter how flat it is
And I'm happy with my knowlegde knowing my side of the pancake is the truth even if some times I don't seam like the winner I'm still the one writing the history blogg

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favourite music C

i thought i would of had more choice of "Cs" but i could only think of two so if anyone can think of something i may of missed let me know

Creedence Clearwater Revival

i have loved their songs a lot growing up, one in particular was a song i can remember my grandfather singing to me a lot when i was younger so my love of the band grew from there and 

crowded house 

another great band from my childhood. and an australian band granted they have a new zealander as a front man but i love them! i cried when they broke up and during the farewell concert at the opera house that i wished i could of been to. i can remember telling my nan when i was 7 that i loved them and this song in particular "you better be home soon" but i also LOVE "fall at your feet" i actually love it that much i dont mind james blunts version 

happy 100

for those following along at home i reached 100 post on my last posting so this is 101

i was excited about getting to 100 and than completely forgot how stupid of me 

stopping the plague

yesterday, the 1st of december was world aids day , the 20th anniversary and to mark the day the w channel aired the special "rampant". which was a special about sydney and australia fought the spread of aids when it was first diagnoised and discovered in the early 80's to be a real disease

i was really interested as aids was one of the few new items and world events i can remember from my childhood. i can vividly remember the aids awareness campaign aid with the grim reaper. i also had a family friend who had aids when i was young and can remember being scared when i first found out about it and 9 years old and had a room mate with HIV when i was in my late teens 

the opening sent chills down my spine!

"25 years ago a man came in to St Vincents hospital sydney sick. he was from new york, a gardner young and fit with a crowded sexual history and he was gay. the doctors made their diagnosis the first in australia. this man had aids. no one knew what caused it or how it might be spread, later when he seamed well he was simply discharged and that was the last the doctors saw of him."

pretty soon more and more gay man were being infected with hiv/aids. no one knew thought it was a virus. they didnt know its history, what caused it, how it was spread, and how to treat it. before it was recgonised to be tarnsmitted by blood. doctors assumed that it was and that there was identified high risk groups, gay man, iv drug uses, sex workers. leapers of the community.

it took some time but the government funded aids eductation programs. needle exchanges were set up across the country so that if you used drugs you could ensure you had a clean needle, condoms were given to brothels with legislation put into place. and target education to gay men on the importance of using condoms. there was also a national program to encourage the general public to use condoms as well at very sexual encounter. a national add was put on australian tvs to shock everyone to tell everyone you were at risk of getting aids if you were not using safe sex practices. 

these were the grim reaper adds that of 1987/88 that everyone of that eara can remember. i was simple terrified of them when they came on. and they still look scary today.

these programs are the "australian model" and is funded permanently. there has never been 1 case of suspected case of a sexual worker been transmitted to a client. 25 000 people have been prevented  from contacting aids/hiv from needle exchange 

by 1987 the spread of aids was down. 6 1/2 thousand people have died in australia from aids. against the trends around the world aids/hiv rates continue to decline 

the australia model is not how hiv is fought in most of the world. elsewhere strategies to stop the virus are based on beliefs about how the world should behave.

the bigger funder of international hiv programs is the usa. most of its funds go to promoting abstinence until marriage and zero tolerance for drugs. it opposes needle exchange and limits support for condoms

around the world 25 million people have died from hiv/aids. 40 million are now infected unless policies change within 10 years 80 million will carry this deadly preventable virus 

favourite music B

its been a long while since my first post on this subject so now ill keep up with then form now on i promise =D

B is hard cos i like a lot of B stuff so ill have to cut it to 3 

Beatles no brainer here i grew up listening to them so of course i like them and i pick strawberry fields as the best cos i remember listening to it heaps when i was little 

Bee Gees i love the bee gees but i prefer the earlier stuff not the whole disco/saturday night fever stuff. i like words, started a joke, how deep is your love ect love that robin signs this one 

and of course backstreet boys i was obsessed with them when i was younger so i cant go past them. i had to put a fans clip of the favourite song. this song always drove my jen and me wild as teens so its the best i could do