i watched this episode of oprah yesterday about women in their 30s
one of the women Jenna was struggling with infertility and my heart just went out to her it was like she was me and it was me on the couch talking to oprah
she starts of saying how she had built a dream of what her 30s was going to be like, 2 children with one on the way, (mine was 3 if not 4 with more on the way)
soon after the wedding she started trying to get pregnant ( we went of the pill 3 months after we got married)
she went to a fertility specialist and was but on clomdid (as was i)
all her friends and family started having children ( i have now over 20 ppl around me who have had children since i have started trying and thats not counting the new siblings at work!)
she states "Every day, as often as they think about their own children, is as often i think about the ones i should have" (that was like she had pulled a deep secret form inside me to the surface)
she says everywhere she looks she is reminded about the choices she has made with children in mind ( im sick, im tired, im exhausted of thinking "when we have kids.....")
after months on the colmid she was put onto IVF (in-vitro infertilistaion, we use IUI (interuninary insemination)
daly injections are part of her routine with every shot comes a dose of hope "this could be the shot that creates that baby for us" ( i think this too, and when im in the chair for the insemination and it creeps into my mind EVERYTIME we have sex, as much as i dont want it to)
after 3 years jenna got pregnant but miscarried at 11 weeks ( we have now being trying for 6 years, my birthday is the anniversary of going of the pill and "trying" hence why i hate my birthday now, its a reminded of no baby, and im terrified of falling pregnant but to have it taken away from me through miscarriage since PCOS has an increase of miscarriages)
jenna mentions a lot about infertility is about waiting, waiting for the next cycle, waiting for enough money, waiting for test results ( i feel all i do is wait!)
in her email to oprah she wrote "infertility for many women like myself is a daily reminded that i am a women who can not perform the very function that is a women, it is a bruise on the soul always tender, painful and much deeper then the discolouration of disappointment" she says she feels shame because she is a women and should be able to bear children and she can not do that unless there is an army of people in the room with her putting embryos inside of her she says "im in my 30's and the women around me are having babies and living their lives i feel stuck, i feel like i am in a place where i cant move on until i have closure" ( i feel like my life has stop, at a standstill, and my closure will be a pregnancy, a baby in my arms)
opah mentions that jenea has probably heard all the stories like ppl trying to get pregnant for yeas, adopt then miraculously fall pregnant. jenna says this is the hardest statement to hear, thats why there is shame,
she dosnt want to hear what she "should do" like "go on vacation" "stop thinking about it" "dont worry it will happen" "your young you have plenty of time" "stop trying" (these are the most painful and insensitive things to hear, i dont want to hear about ppls success stories, and advice especially from ppl who have not gone through infertility!, we have tried all these "curers" and it is the hardest thing in the world "to stop thinking about it" when all you crave is a pregnancy that leads to a baby)
oprah ask "can you hear it may not happen?, can you be at peace with that?" she says "not yet, not yet , my life is about children, im a teacher, my life goal is to have kids, to watch them grow, to be a part of that, for me to be able to let that go im not ready for that, my own biological children i may be able to let go at some point, but we will adopt, i can not let go of not being a mum" (it was like she was pulling words out of my head, im not ready to let go at all, not even biological children yet, children are in my life, im a teacher and if i was to let go of the hope of children for me and being a mum i think i would need to get a new profession, teaching would be unbearable if i was to remain childless for ever, teaching could never replace my own children)
this is the hardest thing i have ever had to deal with. every day i think about when i will have children, and it is soo hard shopping walking past pregnant women and prams and baby shops. i tried not to be bitter but sometimes i cant help it. when i first started trying i would go into all the baby stores and pick out the cots, prams, cloths, car seats ect, when i was frist diagnosed with infertiliy i couldnt even walk past those shops for years or even look at baby catalogues then i go and do something i know would hurt me but i havnt given up hope so i got in to baby toys r us and walk around the baby section touching the cots and change tables, prams, ect and even pick up a complete catolouge on my way out and hide it in my dresser draw to look at it every once in a while. i dont know why i do this to myself when i know it will just hurt me, but i know if ididnt i would have given up hope of ever having that baby.
Lilly
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Thursday, June 12, 2008
adrian the bad luck chemo token
i had chemo on Tuesday and Adrian was going to come. i had actually forgotten to ask him to come until Thursday night, so he had to go to his boss on Friday and ask for Tuesday off, after the public holiday Monday. oops. so Adrian has only been to one chemo day and has met me at chemo twice before. we get there on Tuesday. my doctor is in London for two weeks so i had to go up to the step down unit to get my blood test. the head nurse looked at me and said how was i feeling i dont look to well. i had woken up with the flu on Monday morning, i had caught it off Adrian , who only had barely a cold, i wouldn't even know he was sick had he not told me. i tell sandy (the head nurse) that i had caught the flu and had only had 3 hours sleep because of this. she said hhmmm ok, we might not do chemo then. 5 minutes later she sent me home saying they didn't want to give me chemo which was only going to make me feel worse tomorrow morning and to come back next week.
this has been the 3rd time my chemo has been delayed and these 3 times have all been times Adrian has come with me. there has only been one occasion that he has been to chemo where i have actually gotten chemo! freaky!
so now im calling him but bad luck chemo charm. but dont take this as i dont want him there. i do! i just hope it dosnt get delayed again i cant afford it to be delayed as it will interfere with my holiday.
here is hoping on tuesday when he comes with me it dosnt get delayed lol
this has been the 3rd time my chemo has been delayed and these 3 times have all been times Adrian has come with me. there has only been one occasion that he has been to chemo where i have actually gotten chemo! freaky!
so now im calling him but bad luck chemo charm. but dont take this as i dont want him there. i do! i just hope it dosnt get delayed again i cant afford it to be delayed as it will interfere with my holiday.
here is hoping on tuesday when he comes with me it dosnt get delayed lol
Monday, June 9, 2008
Adam Hills on being an Aussie
Adam Hils is FUCKING funny!
here is 3 gigs, im still looking for my fav one of his when he was in canada and was doing a bit about his missing foot. stay tune hopefully ill find it.
here is 3 gigs, im still looking for my fav one of his when he was in canada and was doing a bit about his missing foot. stay tune hopefully ill find it.
new fav add and funnies on the cheeesels box
a cool add i saw at the movies it is SO typical women
ok this might sound like a slow blog day but this box had me in hesterics. adrian brought mini cheezels the other day and while i was eating i couldnt help but read the side of the box this is what is says
"every tim the big cheeze threw a party he noticed children gathered around the cheesel bowl, slipping regular cheezels onto their tiny fingers. so the big cheeze said "lets invent a mini cheezel a supper cute mini ring perfectly suited to small hands and fingers" so he did and he named them mini cheezels k neezels because they jump head first into fun.
party tricks
* take a box of mini cheezels and a bunch of good friends
* put on you favourite song and start building the highest tower you can out of mini cheezels
*if you knock someone elses tower over you are disqualified
*the person with the highest tower at the end of the song is crowned the mini cheezels maximus (thats a little big hero)
the min cheezels k neezels party food ideas
thread mini cheezels onto a stretch snak lolly
or thread them onto a skinny carrot or chelery sticks
or even strips of liquorice
taste test are also underway with tiny dollops of ice cream in the tiny holes and dipping them into chocolate.
ok this might sound like a slow blog day but this box had me in hesterics. adrian brought mini cheezels the other day and while i was eating i couldnt help but read the side of the box this is what is says
"every tim the big cheeze threw a party he noticed children gathered around the cheesel bowl, slipping regular cheezels onto their tiny fingers. so the big cheeze said "lets invent a mini cheezel a supper cute mini ring perfectly suited to small hands and fingers" so he did and he named them mini cheezels k neezels because they jump head first into fun.
party tricks
* take a box of mini cheezels and a bunch of good friends
* put on you favourite song and start building the highest tower you can out of mini cheezels
*if you knock someone elses tower over you are disqualified
*the person with the highest tower at the end of the song is crowned the mini cheezels maximus (thats a little big hero)
the min cheezels k neezels party food ideas
thread mini cheezels onto a stretch snak lolly
or thread them onto a skinny carrot or chelery sticks
or even strips of liquorice
taste test are also underway with tiny dollops of ice cream in the tiny holes and dipping them into chocolate.
Sunday, June 8, 2008
Thursday, June 5, 2008
Selma Hyak Strips
ok all yesterday i was craving to watch Dogma and late last night on foxtel they put it on it was like they read my mind lol. then when i got up this morning and put the tv on dogma was on again so i watch it again lol. all day ive had ABC in my head from selma's strip scene and the way kevin smith dances to her with the money too funny. so here is the clip. it made me also remember it wasnt the first time she striped in a movie i cant believe i also forgot her scene from dusk till dawn! now that sexy with geroge in it!!
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
My Numerology Definition
my fav monthly magazine put a numerology article in this months issue. i think its actually beneath the magazine to put it in there what are they cleo or cosmo?
but im kinda into numerology, and self definition i suppose. to get my number i had to add up my birthday to a single digit. so im a one (this also means im a new soul where past lives are concerned)
so here is my nurmerology definition
keywords : confidence and creativity ( people have always said i come off as confident, personally i dont see it because i dont think i am, so what they see is lies, and creativity? while id love to be creative and cite the mantra "everyone is creative if given the chance to be" i find it hard to live outside the box which needs creative thinking to achieve)
your personality:
one is the number of leadership and new beginnings. you rush into anything that engages your heart, whether it's a new life plan or a love affair. courageous and unique, you are seen as decisive - although this can come across as impatient - and, in your constant drive to be original, your often drawn towards unusual pursuits. at work however, u cant bear to be at the mercy of other peoples whims and agendas. you tend to be attracted to careers where your in charge and able to work independently. medicine, politics, sport pr, sales and advertising are all good options. as for love, you seek all consuming passions and once you sdride into a lovers life you alter it forever.
(ok im in the wrong profession apparently, but i can see other things are true due to my addictive personality and i do have a thing about being original or not the same as everying else)
your passion:
you love to make things happen and run the show. sexually you like to play out your fantasies and indulge in passionate encounters in exotic locales. you have a romantic side, too and your just as likely to be won over by roses and champagne
(yeah this is all true ;) )
your needs in love and sex:
sensual, passionate and impulsive, you thrive on flirting and the thrill of the chase. above all you want to be swept away by romance and lavished with attention and adoration. at the same time your also assertive person and find it difficult to completely surrender yourself and abandon your need to be in total control. your relationships are often complicated as you simultaneously crave freedom and togetherness. however when you do fall deeply in love your 100 per cent committed a true friends and a staunch ally
(again this is all true too except about complicated relationships)
your love match:
Five with a five lover you will find a willing and adventurous partner who craves new experiences and constant excitement. you both like socialising and meeting new people. five has original inventive mind and sexually this will help increase the eroticism in your relationship you will also tap into each others strong libidos.
(well adrian is an 8 so apprently i married the wrong person too )
your next 6 months:
as you let go of elements in your life that arnt working, including anger over a recent even youll learn to move on. cateerwise a yes answer os on the horizon but be clear about what you wat as your in a position to get it. in love if your willing to go forward without guarantees the pay off will be passionate union and your lover will teach you a lesson in combining friendship and sexual intensity be true to your heart and youll find it easy to make a life changing decision.
(well i can certainly afford to let go of cancer lol, the other stuff will i be getting a new career and fall in love with a friend? no i dont think so lol )
but im kinda into numerology, and self definition i suppose. to get my number i had to add up my birthday to a single digit. so im a one (this also means im a new soul where past lives are concerned)
so here is my nurmerology definition
keywords : confidence and creativity ( people have always said i come off as confident, personally i dont see it because i dont think i am, so what they see is lies, and creativity? while id love to be creative and cite the mantra "everyone is creative if given the chance to be" i find it hard to live outside the box which needs creative thinking to achieve)
your personality:
one is the number of leadership and new beginnings. you rush into anything that engages your heart, whether it's a new life plan or a love affair. courageous and unique, you are seen as decisive - although this can come across as impatient - and, in your constant drive to be original, your often drawn towards unusual pursuits. at work however, u cant bear to be at the mercy of other peoples whims and agendas. you tend to be attracted to careers where your in charge and able to work independently. medicine, politics, sport pr, sales and advertising are all good options. as for love, you seek all consuming passions and once you sdride into a lovers life you alter it forever.
(ok im in the wrong profession apparently, but i can see other things are true due to my addictive personality and i do have a thing about being original or not the same as everying else)
your passion:
you love to make things happen and run the show. sexually you like to play out your fantasies and indulge in passionate encounters in exotic locales. you have a romantic side, too and your just as likely to be won over by roses and champagne
(yeah this is all true ;) )
your needs in love and sex:
sensual, passionate and impulsive, you thrive on flirting and the thrill of the chase. above all you want to be swept away by romance and lavished with attention and adoration. at the same time your also assertive person and find it difficult to completely surrender yourself and abandon your need to be in total control. your relationships are often complicated as you simultaneously crave freedom and togetherness. however when you do fall deeply in love your 100 per cent committed a true friends and a staunch ally
(again this is all true too except about complicated relationships)
your love match:
Five with a five lover you will find a willing and adventurous partner who craves new experiences and constant excitement. you both like socialising and meeting new people. five has original inventive mind and sexually this will help increase the eroticism in your relationship you will also tap into each others strong libidos.
(well adrian is an 8 so apprently i married the wrong person too )
your next 6 months:
as you let go of elements in your life that arnt working, including anger over a recent even youll learn to move on. cateerwise a yes answer os on the horizon but be clear about what you wat as your in a position to get it. in love if your willing to go forward without guarantees the pay off will be passionate union and your lover will teach you a lesson in combining friendship and sexual intensity be true to your heart and youll find it easy to make a life changing decision.
(well i can certainly afford to let go of cancer lol, the other stuff will i be getting a new career and fall in love with a friend? no i dont think so lol )
Sunday, June 1, 2008
Jen and My Fav Pick Up Lines
are we innocent ? hell no lol
are we into each other meh maybe one day lol ;)
this is a chat log that jen and i had almost ten years ago, boredom on a saturday waiting for adrian to come pick us up for a night out at penrith, ahh those where the days
Sat 14/08/99 19:06
End: Sat 14/08/99 20:17
Duration: 71 minutes
Well hello my self I have nothing else to say. So I'm going to say hello HELLO HELLO HELLO HELLO HELLO HELLO HELLO HI HI
ME: HOW YOU DOIN'?
JEN: DON'T TRY AND PICK ME UP THROUGH THE COMPUTER
ME: DID YOU JUST GET OUT OF GOAL?
JEN: NO WHY?
ME: 'COS YOU GOT A CRIMINAL BODY BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
JEN: HAVE YOU GOT THE TIME?
ME: IF YOU'VE GOT THE PLACE BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
JEN: COME HERE OFTEN?
ME: HAVEN'T I SEEN YOU SOMEPLACE BEFORE?
JEN: LET ME GUESS, CANCER RIGHT?
ME: DID IT HURT WHEN YOU FELL FROM HEVEN?
JEN: WAS YOUR FATHER A ROBBER?
ME: NO WHY?
JEN: 'COS HE STOLE THE STARS FROM HEVEN AND PUT THEM IN YOUR EYES
ME: DO YOU SLEEP ON YOUR STOMACH? (HA HA HA GOT YA THERE BABY)
JEN: NO I DON'T (ACTUALLY I DO!!!!!!!)
ME: THEN CAN I
JEN: WILL YOU SLEEP WITH ME FOR $20 MILLION (HA HA HA GOT YOU BACK)
ME: FUCK YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ( OOHHHHHHH)
JEN: WILL YOU SLEEP WITH ME FOR 20 CENTS
ME: WHAT KIND OF GIRL DO YOU THINK I AM (IF YOU WERE MICHEAL FUCK YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
JEN: WE ALREADY ESTABLISHED THAT WE JUST NEGOTIATING THE PRICE!!!!
ME: IF YOU WERE CHERRY-COLA I'D TASTE YOU ALL NIGHT
JEN: I'VE LOST MY PHONE NUMBER...... CAN I BORROW YOURS
ME: (THAT'S MY ONE MAN) DO YOU HAVE ANY IRISH IN YOU?
JEN: NOPE (HEHEHE!!!!)
ME: WANT SOME??
JEN: IS THAT A LADDER IN YOUR STOCKINGS OR A STAIRWAY TO HEAVEN?
ME: (I DON'T WEAR STOCKINGS BABY!!!!) HAVE I SEEN YOU ON A CORNFLAKES PACKET?
JEN: NO WHY?
ME: 'COS YOU LOOK WHOLESOME TO ME BABY!!!!
JEN: SHALL WE SHAG NOW OR SHAG LATER?
ME: (NOW BABY!!!!!!!!!!!) DO I MAKE YOU HORNY BABY...........? RANDY?
JEN: (YEAH BABY!!!!!!!) DO YOU LIKE THE FLICKS....? ALL GIRLS LIKE THE FLICKS!
ME: DO YOU WANT TO JOIN ME AND MY FRIEND FOR A LITTLE SANDWITCH?
JEN: (WELL I AM A LITTLE PECKISH BABY!!!!!!!!) HAVE YOU GOT THE "TIME"
ME: CAN I DRINK 'YOUR" MILK BABY?
JEN: SHOULD I CALL YOUR MOTHER NOW AND LET HER KNOW YOU WON'T BE HOME TONIGHT???
ME: AM I IN HEAVEN? (AFTER A LONG THINKING PERIOD)
JEN:NO WHY?
ME: 'COS YOUR AN ANGEL BABY!!!
JEN: WANNA JOIN MY SMALL STUDY GROUP????
ME: WANT AN M&M? ....... THERE PEANUT!!!!
JEN:IS IT JUST ME OR IS IT HOT IN HERE?
ME:I THINK I LOVE YOU SO WHAT AM I SO AFRAID OF
JEN: ME???
ME: COMMITNMENT!!!!!
JEN:OH THAT'S ALRIGHT THEN!
ME: WANNA FUCK?
JEN:WELL SINCE U ASKED....
ME: LET'S GO BABY
JEN:YEAH BABY SHAGADELIC!!!!!!!!!!
ME: MEET ME IN MY ROOM IN 5 MINUTES ( 5'S A GOOD NUMBER)
JEN:C YA THERE BABY
ME: 69ER?
JEN: OH BEHAVE!!!!!!!!!
ME: I WON'T BITE ..........HARD
JEN: WHEN YOU PUT IT THAT WAY IT'S SO HARD TO RESIST!!!!!!!!!
ME: I'LL BRING THE CHOCLATE
JEN: I'LL BRING THE HEAT!!!!!!!!
ME: I'LL BRING THE ICE
JEN: YEAH BABY
(FIVE MINUTES LATER) ME:DO U WANT THE LIGHTS ON OR OFF BABY?
JEN: I LIKE TO SEE WHAT I'M DOING
ME:ALRIGHT BABY ( WHY AFRIAD YOU WOUN'T BE ABLE TO FIND "ANYTHING" IN THE DARK?)
JEN: (OF COUSE NOT BABY)
ME: IF I WAS COLUMBUS I'D LIKE TO DISCOVER U ALL NIGHT!
JEN:I SEEMED TO OF LOSSED MY PANTS CAN I JUMP INTO YOURS
LISA:YOU’RE THE MOST BEUATIFUL GIRL IN THE WORLD. FANCY A FUCK!
ANDREA: IS THAT YOUR CLEVAGE OR A ROLLERCOASTER
are we into each other meh maybe one day lol ;)
this is a chat log that jen and i had almost ten years ago, boredom on a saturday waiting for adrian to come pick us up for a night out at penrith, ahh those where the days
Sat 14/08/99 19:06
End: Sat 14/08/99 20:17
Duration: 71 minutes
Well hello my self I have nothing else to say. So I'm going to say hello HELLO HELLO HELLO HELLO HELLO HELLO HELLO HI HI
ME: HOW YOU DOIN'?
JEN: DON'T TRY AND PICK ME UP THROUGH THE COMPUTER
ME: DID YOU JUST GET OUT OF GOAL?
JEN: NO WHY?
ME: 'COS YOU GOT A CRIMINAL BODY BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
JEN: HAVE YOU GOT THE TIME?
ME: IF YOU'VE GOT THE PLACE BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
JEN: COME HERE OFTEN?
ME: HAVEN'T I SEEN YOU SOMEPLACE BEFORE?
JEN: LET ME GUESS, CANCER RIGHT?
ME: DID IT HURT WHEN YOU FELL FROM HEVEN?
JEN: WAS YOUR FATHER A ROBBER?
ME: NO WHY?
JEN: 'COS HE STOLE THE STARS FROM HEVEN AND PUT THEM IN YOUR EYES
ME: DO YOU SLEEP ON YOUR STOMACH? (HA HA HA GOT YA THERE BABY)
JEN: NO I DON'T (ACTUALLY I DO!!!!!!!)
ME: THEN CAN I
JEN: WILL YOU SLEEP WITH ME FOR $20 MILLION (HA HA HA GOT YOU BACK)
ME: FUCK YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ( OOHHHHHHH)
JEN: WILL YOU SLEEP WITH ME FOR 20 CENTS
ME: WHAT KIND OF GIRL DO YOU THINK I AM (IF YOU WERE MICHEAL FUCK YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
JEN: WE ALREADY ESTABLISHED THAT WE JUST NEGOTIATING THE PRICE!!!!
ME: IF YOU WERE CHERRY-COLA I'D TASTE YOU ALL NIGHT
JEN: I'VE LOST MY PHONE NUMBER...... CAN I BORROW YOURS
ME: (THAT'S MY ONE MAN) DO YOU HAVE ANY IRISH IN YOU?
JEN: NOPE (HEHEHE!!!!)
ME: WANT SOME??
JEN: IS THAT A LADDER IN YOUR STOCKINGS OR A STAIRWAY TO HEAVEN?
ME: (I DON'T WEAR STOCKINGS BABY!!!!) HAVE I SEEN YOU ON A CORNFLAKES PACKET?
JEN: NO WHY?
ME: 'COS YOU LOOK WHOLESOME TO ME BABY!!!!
JEN: SHALL WE SHAG NOW OR SHAG LATER?
ME: (NOW BABY!!!!!!!!!!!) DO I MAKE YOU HORNY BABY...........? RANDY?
JEN: (YEAH BABY!!!!!!!) DO YOU LIKE THE FLICKS....? ALL GIRLS LIKE THE FLICKS!
ME: DO YOU WANT TO JOIN ME AND MY FRIEND FOR A LITTLE SANDWITCH?
JEN: (WELL I AM A LITTLE PECKISH BABY!!!!!!!!) HAVE YOU GOT THE "TIME"
ME: CAN I DRINK 'YOUR" MILK BABY?
JEN: SHOULD I CALL YOUR MOTHER NOW AND LET HER KNOW YOU WON'T BE HOME TONIGHT???
ME: AM I IN HEAVEN? (AFTER A LONG THINKING PERIOD)
JEN:NO WHY?
ME: 'COS YOUR AN ANGEL BABY!!!
JEN: WANNA JOIN MY SMALL STUDY GROUP????
ME: WANT AN M&M? ....... THERE PEANUT!!!!
JEN:IS IT JUST ME OR IS IT HOT IN HERE?
ME:I THINK I LOVE YOU SO WHAT AM I SO AFRAID OF
JEN: ME???
ME: COMMITNMENT!!!!!
JEN:OH THAT'S ALRIGHT THEN!
ME: WANNA FUCK?
JEN:WELL SINCE U ASKED....
ME: LET'S GO BABY
JEN:YEAH BABY SHAGADELIC!!!!!!!!!!
ME: MEET ME IN MY ROOM IN 5 MINUTES ( 5'S A GOOD NUMBER)
JEN:C YA THERE BABY
ME: 69ER?
JEN: OH BEHAVE!!!!!!!!!
ME: I WON'T BITE ..........HARD
JEN: WHEN YOU PUT IT THAT WAY IT'S SO HARD TO RESIST!!!!!!!!!
ME: I'LL BRING THE CHOCLATE
JEN: I'LL BRING THE HEAT!!!!!!!!
ME: I'LL BRING THE ICE
JEN: YEAH BABY
(FIVE MINUTES LATER) ME:DO U WANT THE LIGHTS ON OR OFF BABY?
JEN: I LIKE TO SEE WHAT I'M DOING
ME:ALRIGHT BABY ( WHY AFRIAD YOU WOUN'T BE ABLE TO FIND "ANYTHING" IN THE DARK?)
JEN: (OF COUSE NOT BABY)
ME: IF I WAS COLUMBUS I'D LIKE TO DISCOVER U ALL NIGHT!
JEN:I SEEMED TO OF LOSSED MY PANTS CAN I JUMP INTO YOURS
LISA:YOU’RE THE MOST BEUATIFUL GIRL IN THE WORLD. FANCY A FUCK!
ANDREA: IS THAT YOUR CLEVAGE OR A ROLLERCOASTER
I have no secrets!
a couple of days ago in aus chat this total random told me a bizarre secret of his (im starting think im a weirdo magnet?) he then told me to tell him something no-one knows about me, i stopped and thought about and realised i had no secrets, none. there is many reasons for this
1. im a blabber mouth and cant keep secrets especially about myself.
2. i just love talking
3. i almost shameless spill everything on to my blog, fb profile, fb status, chat room
4. i have 3 people i tell everything to Adrian, Jen and Mum, they are either there when it happens or the first to know
the random didnt believe me. he said there must be something and stated asking me a bunch of random questions thinking he'll stumble on one that i havnt told someone. he even asked me what type of tooth paste i used, like anyone who has been in my bathroom would know that ( i think he was afraid to ask really personal questions.)
but i did convince him that for every secret i have someone or possible 3 ppl know about it at least!
i later thought about it and drew the same conclusions that i have no secrets. im not sure how i am suppose to feel about this?
but i open it up to anyone who dosnt believe me or thinks they can test me and find one secret to ask me. any question/s! if they like to see if i do have a secret, but once i tell u then i'll be back to having none again. lol. ill look at it this way its all really about getting to know me not secrets ;)
1. im a blabber mouth and cant keep secrets especially about myself.
2. i just love talking
3. i almost shameless spill everything on to my blog, fb profile, fb status, chat room
4. i have 3 people i tell everything to Adrian, Jen and Mum, they are either there when it happens or the first to know
the random didnt believe me. he said there must be something and stated asking me a bunch of random questions thinking he'll stumble on one that i havnt told someone. he even asked me what type of tooth paste i used, like anyone who has been in my bathroom would know that ( i think he was afraid to ask really personal questions.)
but i did convince him that for every secret i have someone or possible 3 ppl know about it at least!
i later thought about it and drew the same conclusions that i have no secrets. im not sure how i am suppose to feel about this?
but i open it up to anyone who dosnt believe me or thinks they can test me and find one secret to ask me. any question/s! if they like to see if i do have a secret, but once i tell u then i'll be back to having none again. lol. ill look at it this way its all really about getting to know me not secrets ;)
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