back to work

(i really need to update this :) )

ok so i went back to work on the 11th of august. after 7 months of being on sick leave i was looking forward to going back to work. initially i was feeling really nervous about going back to work as well as really missing it. when i was visiting work i would feel really out of place and i was worrying how i was going to cope going back to work and thought about having councilling before hand. i was worried that i would feel and act like i was when i first started and have to get used to EVERYTHING again. at home i would sit upstairs(i lived in a house attached to the preschool) and feel nervous and worry about going to work and as much as i missed it i was relieved to to be working there as well. 

then when my boss informed me she didn't have a position for me until january i was very pissed off and felt betrayed, i did understand the reasons why she didnt want me back until the new year but was upset she encouraged me to get another job and stay there if i liked it. i was confused why she was encouraging me to get a new job when i was a valued employee and a good friend. 

so i reached out to my former employer that i had left in 2006 to start my current position. 

the first day i wasnt very nervous or anxious at all. it felt like i was going back home. i love the kids and the girls i work with is great. it took about a fortnight to get back into the routine as i was little confused at times remembering what they did when i was there last time and my old jobs routine. i was very tired probably for the first month of working and occasionally still a bit tired now 

(i didnt tell my old boss i wasnt planning to go back there but she did know i was working and awkardly both preschools are 5 mins walking distances from each other.)

in the end all the  worry and nerves i had about going back to work disappeared and i didnt need a councilling session